life has become so utterly boring...wake up, work, come home, eat, watch tv, jack off, sleep...about as stimulating as rinse, lather, repeat...I thought when I gave up drugs and alcohol all those years ago that life would be one wonderful day of sunshine and rainbows after the next...blah...I feel so ridiculous being tied down to house payments, car payments, bills and the like...am basically a hampster on a wheel, running around to make money in order to give it to someone else...the world can...